Fret
Internal,
infernal revolution
That
plays out in my thoughts
Consumes
my head
Unsettled
flesh and bones
In
my own body
Blue
blood oxygenated
Spilling
red, red, red
When
self becomes one’s own oppressor
When
self and ego don’t play fair
Undertow,
colossal tsunami of emotions
Breathe,
breathe, feel the belly rising
Bloat
me like I’ve consumed too much bread
A
carbohydrate exhaustion
Makes
my mind dark, limbs like lead, lead, lead
I
need a little pick me up
A
break from winter’s cold
I
need to accept that I’m growing old, old, old
Stutter,
shake, collapse and sleep now
Wake
up in the morning
Feel
the same
Like
a lottery where your ticket’s never winning
The
borderline between the sane and insane, insane, insane
I
just want a moment of normal
Whatever
normal may be
Or
is such a state sustainable
Just
need to be happy to be me, me, me
That’s
the only way I can ever be free, free, free
Unshackle
thoughts, beliefs and assumptions
Clear
the shit straight out of my head
I
seek the clear and pleasant waters
A
place devoid of unfounded fear and dread, dread, dread
I
know I know I’m not my thoughts I’m thinking
Always
without ever a reprieve
Go
to hell ego voice and demons
Break
the shackles self-imposed and be, be, be
Edmonton, AB,
Canada